One of the weirdest things about me is the way I can talk all the time with some people--my sister, Harry, Matt, Lauren, Elena, etc. -- and feel no urge to say anything all day to others. I can't help it. I'm not interested in the people in my grade. I guess I could try to join the whole thing and be one of the girls, or guys, or something, but I just feel no desire to break the silence and talk to them.

So far I'm doing pretty well. I feel a few pangs now and then, like looking down a mountain, but I manage not to slide. I need to hit a plateu. I need to go to college.